Remembering the Past to Fuel the Present

Hey  everyone!
So, I made it through the weekend without caving! It sounds small, but for me, weekends are rough. I've learned that I have to take this one day at a time and remind myself every morning why I'm doing this.

Growing up, I often left school feeling defeated and my self-worth was next to nothing. When I came home, it was much of the same. I spent most of my childhood and teenage years having nowhere to go where I felt safe or where I was particularly praised for the things I was doing right. I think the first time I lost the weight, I just wanted to feel accepted and that I was worth something. When the weight loss really didn't transform my home life as I somehow, subconsciously thought that it would, I began gaining it back. I think it is so important to take a look back and figure out what went wrong the first time so that you can avoid making the same mistakes.

I am just so thankful that God took my life and transformed it in the past few years. I am so blessed with an amazing family and I can honestly say the scars of my past are healing and I can now use those learning experiences as strength to draw from. It's amazing what God can do! I could never deny His existence after the radical changes that have taken place in my life. Everything I do, I owe it all to Christ.

Now that I recognize the areas I went wrong in my past and I have much more stability in my life, I know I am doing this for the right reasons. I want to live a long and healthy life, I want to set an example for my daughter and one day, I want more children. All of these things and more are what's fueling me like never before! I'm also well aware that maintaining the weight after I lose it will be the biggest struggle of all. I can't let my fear of failure hold me back anymore and I encourage anyone else reading this to not talk yourself out of it! There are so many beautiful reasons to revolutionize your life. Let's start with our health this year. Let's own up to our mistakes and past failures and use those as fuel. Let's make the choice, today and every day, that we are worth it.

I am determined. Are you?